FAILURE FOR LIFE

not a good son, not a good brother, not a good boyfriend, not a good friend, not a good student, not a good learner. nothing. i'm a failure.

actually its only after the death of steve jobs that i realised how meaningful his speech were. my lecturer used to ask me to hear how he speak but i didn't pay much attention.. the words he said are true.. kept me thinking.

“Don’t let the noise of others’ opinions drown out your own inner voice. And most important, have the courage to follow your heart and intuition.”

"The secret to innovation is saying no to 1,000 things,"

"The business community and future leaders should take note of his example: focus on quality, focus on the future and rely on your internal vision"

The thing that drives me and my colleagues … is that you see something very compelling to you, and you don't quite know how to get it, but you know, sometimes intuitively, it's within your grasp. And it's worth putting in years of your life to make it come into existence"

'No one wants to die. Even people who want to go to heaven don't want to die to get there. And yet death is the destination we all share. No one has ever escaped it. And that is as it should be, because Death is very likely the single best invention of Life. It is Life's change agent. It clears out the old to make way for the new. Right now the new is you, but some day not too long from now, you will gradually become the old and be cleared away. Sorry to be so dramatic, but it is quite true. Your time is limited, so don't waste it living someone else's life. Don't be trapped by dogma — which is living with the results of other people's thinking.'

considering of buying is book to read.

I've Returned!

finally my temp data entry job is coming to an end after today! although i got more income for the month, i really love to have the time to rest and do things that i wanna do! having extra $ is good if u have a plan for it, or to save it.

anyway working in this particular seafood restaurant has taught me abit although im just a data entry worker.

the good:
- seeing and experiencing first hand knowledge of how departments function and work
- i can also relate to my EBP module which i learnt last sem
- see how workers work during stress

the bad:
- seeing how real that each department are working on its on even though there are 2-3 depts in the same office! the silo effect is there. the depts only help their own depts.
- alot of office politics, the badmouthing and backstabbing
- everyone only cares abt themselves
- so many smokers and nearly suffocating me!

but still its a good exposure and it wont dampen my spirit in working in a business environment one day after my graduation! and hopefully i can save enough capital to startup my own business in future.

i have a plan to save enough money to have a decent marriage, a decent and cosy home, a small car to ferry me from A to B, able to get stuffs that i like, start a family and most importantly to give my parents a better life.

3 more sems to go.. wonder if thats a good thing or not. i realised im only good in studying for exams, after exams my knowledge vanish tgt with the papers. sigh how can i enter the workforce like that..

anyway 2 days ago, i had a mild infection in my chin area, but yesterday it became even more infected. a bigger and painful lump.. so i had to consult the doc and he said that if it became soft in the core, have to cut the whole area that will leave a scar.. i dont want lor. gonna pray that my medications will cure me!

gonna attend xh's brother wedding tmr. kinda excited and yet nervous. my 4th time attending a wedding and its my first time alone with family/relatives! and becos of my chin.. its pretty obvious... so.. :(

my birthday is coming and i feel like getting an armani watch that cost $200-$300 to pamper myself. but idk if i should? :(
till i blog again~

MALAYSIA GETAWAY!

first time ever for me (yes its the first time) that i'm going overseas with my classmates! pretty interesting and exciting! so we met up at 6am and prepare to go for our getawayyyy!

a group shot before we depart.





my baby and i on the bus!







some random pics on the bus..













breakfast at some coffee shop. but i think sg ones are better still!







so after breakfast, we went to explore abit!











on the way to the self proclaim chocolate factory. but didnt take much pics.







so lunch was seafood lunch. not very nice though but its fun eating with my classmates!



















ostrich farm next on the list!











fruit farm is next!









































so off we go to the i-don't-know-the-name of the shopping centre which is located near our dinner location. nothing much to walk, so we were slacking at some fast food restaurant with the unique swing seating.







so its dinner time! seafood which isn't so seafoodish.







so after dinner, we came to the highlight of the day! aka fireflies seeing. really hate wearing life vest.. totally. reminds me of the days when i'm taking my goldstar survivor test when i was primary 3. tsk.













and the heavy pig..



and since we are not allowance flash photography.. basically can't shoot the fireflies.











alas, home sweet home. this concludes our 1 day malaysia trip. totally enjoyed my time with my classmates!