I really couldn't focus on my social psych topic of close relationship for it really got me so upset. Every page seems like a torture because every word really reminds me of u. I feel so bad because I know how lousy I was in the relationship and it might be attributed that you stayed because of the lack of an attractive alternative.
But once there was a better alternative it seems like I was nothing. Whenever i look back into the past, I really wish I was a better boyfriend.
It's 2015 and I really hope it would be a better year than 2014. It was horrible to say the least in the 2nd half of the year. At least things between us seems abit more cordial although the fact is that we aren't really talking.
Everyday I still blame myself for what that has transpired. Your words has always been in my mind and I am seriously very cautious and quite reluctant to try to think or do anything because it seems you have become someone whom I really don't know anymore. My thoughts or actions might be misinterpreted and rather than to make things worst.. All I could do is to leave u alone and just pretend you are no longer a part of my life.
Baby girl, I've been thinking of you every single day. It hurts me so much that whenever I think of you, tears seems to be a frequent patron. I miss you everyday, more than any words can say.
But it's too late, there are so many things running through my mind.. all the "what-ifs". What if I didn't say those words that started all these.. what if I've tried even harder.. what if I was a better boyfriend. Theres nothing much I can do now. I miss your smile, your random pictures, your hugs, your voice.. everything. I miss you.
Finally the day has arrived and i managed to complete my 1st ever university admission interview.
Though i would say my interview wasn't the best and i could have done better if only the nerves didn't get into me, but i would say i should be contented to have come so far!
If i were to get in, i would most probably choose Sociology! Judging from the scope being covered and all, seems pretty interesting.
Anyway to be honest, all the preparation work done is quite useless because no amount of preparation will get you prepared for the interview.
I searched online trying to get the gist of whats to come.. likw hows the interview like, what questions will they asked and stuff but ended up nothing was said.. maybe it changed every year?
For my interview technically it is a group interview, all will be given the same exact passage to read for about 20 mins and then to meet the 2 professors which will be the one dishing the questions.
Generally what they are asking were more abt the passage and the rational over the moral values pertaining to the passage and nothing else.
Though my group technically equal opportunities were given to all to speak, but still must fight for own air time else really will get left behind.
Hopefully i will know the results about my rejection/acceptance soon! :)